"Stop letting people who do so little for you control so much of your mind, feelings, and emotions"-Will Smith, as quoted by Kim West :)

This idea has been on my mind a lot frequently. I try to be a good friend. I try really hard. If I consider you a good friend, I'll do as much as I can to help you out. And I'm tired of that not being reciprocated.

Don't get me wrong; it's not like I have some tally chart for each of my friends that says who owes more favors and what not. I don't. But when it gets so completely unbalanced, it gets wearying.

Thus, I'm stepping up my New Year's Resolution. I originally said something along the lines of "stop letting people you don't care about make you mad." But I think I'm ready for a route that's stepped up a little bit. I'm tired of being walked over. I'm tired of doing thing I hate doing to make another person happy. I'm definitely tired of feeling guilty on those occasions that I do turn those people down.

I'm also tired of associating with people who have no motivation or drive. We quickly run out of things to talk about when our lives are going in such opposite directions. I'm meeting all of these incredible people in the English program and I feel like I can't get close with them because I can't have too many good friends, or I can't give my new friends and my old friends equal time.

So. I'm done. :) I'm going to live for what makes me happy. If I can help someone out on the way, that's fantastic. I'm sure I'll be able to. However, I'm no longer going to sacrifice my feelings and my peace of mind to do so.

Call me selfish. Don't care. I think it's a necessary change that's been a long time coming.