I want out of Smithfield. Now.

So I never thought I would say this but-I miss Ephraim. Upon further investigation, it might not be specifically Ephraim I miss, more just living on my own.
I absolutely loved living away from home. The first couple of days were hard, but after that it was so much fun. I loved being away from family, not having a curfew or really any rules at all, and getting to make my own decisions. Granted, some of those decisions may not have been the best ones, but I learned from all of them. I wouldn't change any of them.
And now, being home REALLY sucks. Terribly. I just want to move out and go somewhere brand new, without having a chance of a surprise visit from any family.
On an unrelated note, I really miss my friends. :( A whole lot more than I thought I was going to. Basically I do nothing but work now, and this summer sucks balls compared to last summer. I want it to be like it used to be, and if it can't, I would really like to go back to Ephraim and play with Megan and Trevor and John all the time like I did during the school year.
On a happier note, I got a letter from Brendan today :) his letters always make me insanely happy, and I miss him so so much. They brighten my day and are always full of good advice. I love it!
I played Scattergories with Kenzie, Shelbey, Joss, Dani, Tex, Megan and Kelsey tonight. Birthday in three days!! I'm so unbelievably excited. Kenzie and Texas are throwing me a themed party, but they won't tell me what it is, which makes me slightly nervous. Oh well. I have great friends :)